Revelations

When I read quotes or interviews of celebrities or other credible people that says something along the lines of "just be yourself" or "don't care about what others think", I thought to myself, how hard could that possibly be? Like, really?

Maybe it's just the hint of clichéd arrangement of words or maybe it was my young arrogant self, but I've always thought I was myself for a very long time. I wasn't trying to be anyone else by changing my hair, clothes or personality. I owned my own self. Or at least I thought I had.

Wearing a cardigan over your spaghetti-strapped tank to please your aunts isn't doing justice to "being yourself". Nor is buying a Nintendo DS when all you really wanted was a PSP, but because all your friends had it, you should too. I realised all of this just a tad bit too late but it's better late than never.

The root of my problem is that I stand out a little too much. And I mean that in the least haughty way possible. I don't know whether it's because of my "bule" looks or the way I walk/dress/talk - but I can never walk down my own street (or anywhere for that matter) without being fully stared at.

I guess it kind of bugs me that I just can't be unnoticeable for one day. Because of this, I try to do everything I can in my power to be... Less noticeable. I always dress down, wear my hair like I don't care and just hunch whenever I feel like I'm taller than most.

Because of this I never wore the things I really wanted to wear. Or else I'd be gawked at.

Now those clichéd quotes were clichéd for a reason. Because they have never been truer (I should really fine myself for how insanely cheesy I sound but the truth's the truth!). Never did I think those words would mean anything more than Hilary Duff trying to sound noble.

So this is the part where you say "screw other people's opinions", because I am aware that maybe I'll never go unnoticed. Maybe I'll always get the head-to-toe glances from girls who aren't even my age. So I might as well stand out. Stand out as much as I possibly can. At least then I'll give them something actually worth staring at.


xo,

S