"Bien que mon amour soit fou, ma raison calme les trop vives douleurs de mon coeur en lui disant de patienter, et d'espérer toujours..."

Undestanding you, Suka

People like you are rare. You are a unique and creative person who tends to march to the beat of your own drummer. Private, quiet, and socially cautious, only friends who know you very well may ever see your more playful and expressive side. In fact, it takes awhile for you to feel comfortable with new people so you may often be described as somewhat reserved. But inside, you are a person of great feeling and care deeply for the people and causes that are dear to your heart. Your personal values are most important to you so you always try to make choices that you feel good about. You are rarely willing to compromise on anything that is really important to you. You can sometimes become overwhelmed by the intensity of your emotions, and your relationships need to be free of conflict or tension for you to remain in them.

You are also a highly imaginative person and may enjoy expressing yourself through the arts. But since you are also somewhat of a perfectionist, you may have trouble hearing constructive criticism without taking it personally. You are quick to understand the deeper meaning of things, and often have a fresh or original take on events and people. Since you prefer by nature to act spontaneously, you resist too many rules or too much structure. And you may also have trouble staying organized or making decisions. At heart, you are a non-conformist and must find the path that is really right for you, even if it means striking out alone.

Old habits die hard

"List a few words that describe you."

Give me a maths equation, give me a science question and I'll do it regardless of the fact of my hatred for those subjects. But give me a typical university application question and I'm out of here. What is it that I find so difficult just to find a few words to describe what I am? Sounds like I don't know who I am, which is more or less true. Committed? Please, the only thing I'm committed to is to be committed to nothing. Sociable, competitive, artistic? Sounds better, but not quite there.

Tolerant. This is the word.

I asked my dad whether or not being tolerant is a good thing. He says that "it's good to an extent but when you start going out of your way for people, is when you should pull away and revise the situation." After this has been said, I realise that a lot of the things I do is for others. It's something I shouldn't be very proud of because then, when do I start to do things for me? Putting other people's needs/wants in front of mine feels like my nature.. Or to put it in a negative sense; an obsessive compulsive disorder. With nature, it's not something that you can easily change, which feels the same as this habit of mine. How much of this will affect my choices in the future? I know that if I don't let go of this, it will surely make an impact one way or another.

Is it too late for a new year's resolution?

xo,
Suka